Tag Archives: time

100%

Name a person that would make you sweat if they showed up at your door? Creative instigator extraordinaire Dyana Valentine asked me this question when we began working together.  In a nanosecond my heart yelled, Danielle LaPorte, but I hesitated … Continue reading

Posted in Growth, In the Now | Tagged , , , , , , | 10 Comments

A letter to my body

Today’s post was inspired by the lovely Kristin Noelle over at Trust Tending. Please treat yourself to some time there. Her sketches, meditations, rituals and interviews are food for the soul. Go here to read other letters. Write your own. … Continue reading

Posted in In the Now, Looking back | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

10 months

There were no big tears today, no extraordinary sadness, no heavy sighs. Off and on I thought about the date, the numbers 2 and 9 nestled next to each other on the calendar page. I am 10 months from the … Continue reading

Posted in In the Now | Tagged , , , , | 5 Comments

Early Days

The grief is pouring out of me like early days. I don’t sleep well. I wake up tired, spent. I am unhappy, uncomfortable, as though I am the princess and there is a pea hidden under my skin. My patience … Continue reading

Posted in In the Now | Tagged , , , , , | 7 Comments

Easy

When I chose the word ease to embody 2011, what I was secretly hoping for was easy. I wanted to close the door on 2010 and prance into a field of flowers, with showtunes playing and everyone smiling all the … Continue reading

Posted in Growth | Tagged , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Tears to joy

Last night I went back to the birthing center that is both the home of the amazing midwife who was a wonderful support to us, and the weekly Pregnancy Circle that I was attending before Ben died. It was for … Continue reading

Posted in In the Now | Tagged , , , , | 7 Comments

40 before 40

I believe that we come into this world with our inner light shining brightly and as we move through childhood, forces shift and shape us, often causing us to dim that light in order to be loved, liked, approved of, … Continue reading

Posted in Growth, Looking forward | Tagged , , , , | 10 Comments

Limbo

I’ve been struggling all day. Fighting reality. I’m coming to realize it’s harder to know that changing my thoughts is a choice, ending the suffering is a choice, and being wholly unable to get there. It’s not that I had … Continue reading

Posted in In the Now | Tagged , , , | 5 Comments

Love letter

Dearest Ben, Today marks six months from the moment you were taken out of my body, completely still, your heart no longer beating alongside mine. I am halfway through the first year without you. I am not sure how to … Continue reading

Posted in In the Now | Tagged , , , , , | 10 Comments

A letter of love

I am down with a horrible cold. I can’t remember the last time I was this sick. It makes me feel like no time has passed since my broken leg, my morning sickness, my bed rest, the surgery. I wonder … Continue reading

Posted in Looking forward | Tagged , , , , | 3 Comments