Tag Archives: telling the truth

Dancing on my own

I used to be a shy kid. People who know me now shake their heads in disbelief when I mention this.  It used to be that the place I felt the most comfortable was on a stage, dancing my heart … Continue reading

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Grief is not linear

Time heals all wounds. You’ll feel better in time. Eventually the pain will lessen. The first 3 months…the first 6 months…the first year is the hardest. These are all true, though they offer thin comfort. They add to the illusion … Continue reading

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Undressing

I am undressing. Peeling layer after layer away. The protection of extra weight. The comfort of not-quite-addictions. The sweat soaked second skin of fear. I am taking them off publicly and privately, baring my soul in the process. I am … Continue reading

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Letting go…again

There has been a lot of letting go in my life recently. Letting go of the way I think things should be. Letting go of expectations. Letting go of what I believe I want in place of what lies underneath. … Continue reading

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Intuition

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift. -Albert Einstein There is a voice deep inside you that is … Continue reading

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Easy

When I chose the word ease to embody 2011, what I was secretly hoping for was easy. I wanted to close the door on 2010 and prance into a field of flowers, with showtunes playing and everyone smiling all the … Continue reading

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Wallowing

I spilled the salt today. It wasn’t a big deal. I was working on another batch of kale chips and hadn’t made enough room on the counter. The salad spinner was drying on top of a bowl. It shifted and … Continue reading

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Legoland

We spent yesterday and today at Legoland. On the drive down, I kept flashing back to our first visit, at the tail end of my four weeks of first trimester bleeding. Steve had work in San Diego so Ada and … Continue reading

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Fish hooks

I can see them in my  mind’s eye – the glint of silver, light flashing off their smooth lines, deadly barbs curving innocently back on themselves. They’ve been in me so long, I barely notice their presence. But I know … Continue reading

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Release

I’ve had a pain in my chest the last few days. I figured it was the coffee. I get scary heart palpitations from too much caffeine (too much being more than a cup a day). I saw a cardiologist years … Continue reading

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