Tag Archives: sister

The next stage

Yesterday Ada wanted to buy new sunglasses, For when I’m a big sister. Yesterday we watched one of our neighbors with his almost-two-year-old son walking hand in hand toward us on the beach. Holding the little boy’s other hand was … Continue reading

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Much

I have much to say, much on my mind, much that is crying to get out, popping up in my meditation, beating in time to my heart. But we are getting up at 4am to head for Canada, to spend … Continue reading

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The return of fear

The fear is back. It’s manifesting differently but after six splinters, two scraped knees, complaints of tummy pain and a huge fall all in the last five days, I’m terrified that a) my fear caused all of this and b) … Continue reading

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Generational tears

My little shining light daughter is a ball of emotions. She doesn’t want to play with her friends, she doesn’t want me out of her sight, she cries even more than usual. Walking with a close friend today, a friend … Continue reading

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Travel

I felt like I was missing a part of myself yesterday when I was unable to post. I know that no matter what else happens in my day, I will be able to sit for a few minutes with myself, … Continue reading

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Watching Grief. Explaining Death.

It’s interesting to watch grief takes its toll. I am so happy to have my husband home for three weeks after eleven weeks of work on the road. (He was home for a few days every week but it was … Continue reading

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Falling Apart

Today Ada and I made cupcakes for my dad’s birthday. I cleared piles of paper off the desk while she watched Sesame Street on the computer. It all feels too normal. It seems too soon to feel this way, to … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday Beautiful Girl

To the beautiful bright shining light who chose this family to be a part of, happy 3rd birthday. I am so grateful for you and so in love with you. You make me laugh. You fill my heart so full … Continue reading

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Home Again

We are home. We came home to a clean apartment, cards, gifts and food. I cried. Ada picked up her guitar and started singing, making up songs “for my little brother Mama”. My mom arrived. She will be here for … Continue reading

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What’s his name again, Mama?

Ada and I have been having these lovely conversations before bed the last few nights. We talk about all sorts of things. She usually says something about the baby or her brother. Last night she wanted to be reminded of … Continue reading

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