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Voices

Might we not say to the confused voices which sometime arise from the depths of our being: “Ladies, be so kind as to speak only four at a time.” – Madame Swetchine I have been hearing voices lately, some welcome, … Continue reading

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Another word

Reverb10. December 2. Writing. What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it? (from Leo Babauta of Zen Habits and Focus Manifesto) One word. Email. I love email. Having a preschooler … Continue reading

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Icing

I had a tough day today. Woke up on the proverbial wrong side of the bed. The worst part is I know it’s all in my head – the suffering anyway. The grief is real but the unhappiness, the frustration, … Continue reading

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Heavy

There is a heaviness in my body today, a heaviness in my soul. I woke in the middle of the night to my period, the cramping reminded me on a visceral level that there is no baby, only blood. Right … Continue reading

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The ugly side of grief

For a little while tonight, I thought I was a normal human being again. I’m not. I hurt a friend – and possibly scared a few others – in my messiness. My skin is as thin as Benjamin’s was when … Continue reading

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This week

Steve is in the air on his way to Germany until next Saturday. I am already exhausted. I hereby proclaim it to be eat-take-out-when-I-need-to, get-more-sleep, be-extra-kind-to-myself week. P.S. Miraculously, Ada ate broccoli tonight and stated emphatically “I love broccoli”. I … Continue reading

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Random Thoughts, Day 17

Dinner tonight was made and delivered by someone who had never met us. People are amazing and there is so much good in the world. ***** No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. – C.S. Lewis … Continue reading

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Marking Time

It has been one week since Benjamin’s…birth? Death? What do I call it? Soon it will be one month, then one year, then ten years. The healing will happen because it must. It is what we do as human beings … Continue reading

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