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Conversations

We live in the third house from the beach. It’s a small two-story, though bigger than our last home. The second floor is one large room with toys, a cardboard house, a craft table, my Pilates reformer and walls covered … Continue reading

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Thank you

I have been awed and humbled by the last three days. By the way everything fell apart and came back together. By the love, support and kind words. By the gratitude I feel for my son, my support system, my … Continue reading

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Love and stuff

Yesterday morning I woke to pictures of my cousin’s new baby boy in my inbox. I smiled. He’s beautiful. Grief sat squarely on my chest. I ignored it. I thought about everything I needed to get done. I began to … Continue reading

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Grief changes relationships

Over the last 11 months, I have found myself reaching out to women I know who are further along in their mourning process. It doesn’t matter if our losses are similar, because grief is specific to each of us. As … Continue reading

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11 months

Yesterday was 11 months from the date of Ben’s death. Most of the day felt like any other in this new life. I had a moment in the morning where I looked at the clock on the microwave and flashed … Continue reading

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100%

Name a person that would make you sweat if they showed up at your door? Creative instigator extraordinaire Dyana Valentine asked me this question when we began working together.  In a nanosecond my heart yelled, Danielle LaPorte, but I hesitated … Continue reading

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Choosing hope

I pay little attention to the news. It’s not that I want to put my head in the sand and ignore world events. There are a couple of daily emails or weekly news magazines that I’ll scan so I’ve got … Continue reading

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Lessons from my daughter

Feel your feelings fully. Laugh uproariously. Cry until the last tear has been shed and turns into a smile, even if that means two minutes of whimpering and fake crying to get through to the next wave, or to make … Continue reading

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Voices

Might we not say to the confused voices which sometime arise from the depths of our being: “Ladies, be so kind as to speak only four at a time.” – Madame Swetchine I have been hearing voices lately, some welcome, … Continue reading

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Stepping through

Under my hand, I can feel the cool smoothness of the doorknob. I stand, eyes shut and heart open, feeling what is on the other side. Feeling the enormity of the decision, feeling the fear of being wrong, feeling the … Continue reading

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