Tag Archives: hope

11 months

Yesterday was 11 months from the date of Ben’s death. Most of the day felt like any other in this new life. I had a moment in the morning where I looked at the clock on the microwave and flashed … Continue reading

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Choosing hope

I pay little attention to the news. It’s not that I want to put my head in the sand and ignore world events. There are a couple of daily emails or weekly news magazines that I’ll scan so I’ve got … Continue reading

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Lessons from my daughter

Feel your feelings fully. Laugh uproariously. Cry until the last tear has been shed and turns into a smile, even if that means two minutes of whimpering and fake crying to get through to the next wave, or to make … Continue reading

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Dancing on my own

I used to be a shy kid. People who know me now shake their heads in disbelief when I mention this.  It used to be that the place I felt the most comfortable was on a stage, dancing my heart … Continue reading

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Stepping through

Under my hand, I can feel the cool smoothness of the doorknob. I stand, eyes shut and heart open, feeling what is on the other side. Feeling the enormity of the decision, feeling the fear of being wrong, feeling the … Continue reading

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Undressing

I am undressing. Peeling layer after layer away. The protection of extra weight. The comfort of not-quite-addictions. The sweat soaked second skin of fear. I am taking them off publicly and privately, baring my soul in the process. I am … Continue reading

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Praying for peace

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other. – Mother Teresa Praying for peace tonight – for myself, for the world.

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#200

In honor of my 200th post, my daily practices and the joy inside… THE SUNRISE RUBY In the early morning hour, just before dawn, lover and beloved wake and take a drink of water. She asks, “Do you love me … Continue reading

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Spreading my wings

Change is coming fast and furious. There are big shifts in the wind. My internal and external worlds are coming more and more into alignment, though on the surface, nothing seems certain. I feel safely cradled in the arms of … Continue reading

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Stories

At a friend’s house last week I ran into a mama from my pregnancy support circle. Our due dates had been days apart. We recognized each other, but it took some time for us to remember where we had met. … Continue reading

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