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Grief changes relationships

Over the last 11 months, I have found myself reaching out to women I know who are further along in their mourning process. It doesn’t matter if our losses are similar, because grief is specific to each of us. As … Continue reading

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Little gifts

Yesterday morning Ada woke up and with delight in her eyes, wished us a happy Easter. Then she paused. I’m going to wish Happy Easter to our angel. Do you want to wish Happy Easter to our angel? Steve and … Continue reading

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Early Days

The grief is pouring out of me like early days. I don’t sleep well. I wake up tired, spent. I am unhappy, uncomfortable, as though I am the princess and there is a pea hidden under my skin. My patience … Continue reading

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Little gratitudes

Every night as I drift into sleep, I spend time with my gratitude. Tonight I thought I would share some here. Despite my writing about grief, my life is good. I have the luxury of these thoughts. My basic needs … Continue reading

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Limbo

I’ve been struggling all day. Fighting reality. I’m coming to realize it’s harder to know that changing my thoughts is a choice, ending the suffering is a choice, and being wholly unable to get there. It’s not that I had … Continue reading

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Home

Steve has a lovely childhood friend that I’ve met a couple of times. She’s single, a teacher, with a huge heart, and she wanted to be a mom. After caring for her father  as he died, she began the process … Continue reading

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Love letter

Dearest Ben, Today marks six months from the moment you were taken out of my body, completely still, your heart no longer beating alongside mine. I am halfway through the first year without you. I am not sure how to … Continue reading

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Sadness and celebration

Sitting in my daughter’s room with her this afternoon, looking at her bookshelf, I noticed my copy of Tear Soup. I lay it on my lap and reread it while she played, then we looked at the pictures together as … Continue reading

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Family

I am lucky to have a family I adore. My parents and brother, his wife and their children, aunts and uncles and all but a few cousins are people I would chose to spend time with. I married into another … Continue reading

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Ordinary joy

Reverb10. December 27. Ordinary Joy. Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year? (from Brene Brown, author of The Gifts of Imperfection) A few of the thousands … Continue reading

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