Category Archives: Growth

Closing this one down

As of today Life After Benjamin will no longer broadcast from this WordPress.com station. I’ve moved to a self-hosted site and hope you will join me there. http://lifeafterbenjamin.com If you click on the above link and see this: https://lifeafterbenjamin.wordpress.com in … Continue reading

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Thank you

I have been awed and humbled by the last three days. By the way everything fell apart and came back together. By the love, support and kind words. By the gratitude I feel for my son, my support system, my … Continue reading

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Love and stuff

Yesterday morning I woke to pictures of my cousin’s new baby boy in my inbox. I smiled. He’s beautiful. Grief sat squarely on my chest. I ignored it. I thought about everything I needed to get done. I began to … Continue reading

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11 months

Yesterday was 11 months from the date of Ben’s death. Most of the day felt like any other in this new life. I had a moment in the morning where I looked at the clock on the microwave and flashed … Continue reading

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A visit

I’ve been feeling my own absence lately. This space that used to be for daily expression has taken a back seat to bigger projects. But my heart is here and there are many stories I have yet to tell. In … Continue reading

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100%

Name a person that would make you sweat if they showed up at your door? Creative instigator extraordinaire Dyana Valentine asked me this question when we began working together.  In a nanosecond my heart yelled, Danielle LaPorte, but I hesitated … Continue reading

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Voices

Might we not say to the confused voices which sometime arise from the depths of our being: “Ladies, be so kind as to speak only four at a time.” – Madame Swetchine I have been hearing voices lately, some welcome, … Continue reading

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Dancing on my own

I used to be a shy kid. People who know me now shake their heads in disbelief when I mention this.  It used to be that the place I felt the most comfortable was on a stage, dancing my heart … Continue reading

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Stepping through

Under my hand, I can feel the cool smoothness of the doorknob. I stand, eyes shut and heart open, feeling what is on the other side. Feeling the enormity of the decision, feeling the fear of being wrong, feeling the … Continue reading

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Grief is not linear

Time heals all wounds. You’ll feel better in time. Eventually the pain will lessen. The first 3 months…the first 6 months…the first year is the hardest. These are all true, though they offer thin comfort. They add to the illusion … Continue reading

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