Monthly Archives: March 2011

8 months

Last night I found myself putting Ada to sleep in the same bed we were in the night my pregnancy ended. As I lay there, images of that night washing over and through me, I realized it was March 29. … Continue reading

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Recognizing who you are

It is important to recognize who you are, without being too egotistical or too humble. It is the two-fold problem of being all you can be. Many of you have not developed a picture of power that you would want … Continue reading

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Early Days

The grief is pouring out of me like early days. I don’t sleep well. I wake up tired, spent. I am unhappy, uncomfortable, as though I am the princess and there is a pea hidden under my skin. My patience … Continue reading

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Easy

When I chose the word ease to embody 2011, what I was secretly hoping for was easy. I wanted to close the door on 2010 and prance into a field of flowers, with showtunes playing and everyone smiling all the … Continue reading

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Tears to joy

Last night I went back to the birthing center that is both the home of the amazing midwife who was a wonderful support to us, and the weekly Pregnancy Circle that I was attending before Ben died. It was for … Continue reading

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40 before 40

I believe that we come into this world with our inner light shining brightly and as we move through childhood, forces shift and shape us, often causing us to dim that light in order to be loved, liked, approved of, … Continue reading

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Super Moon

I used to know it was a full moon by how crazy my customers were when I was a bartender. Now I know it’s a full moon because my body buzzes from the energy, I can’t sleep, and everything in … Continue reading

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Patience

Patience is the only prayer by the side of a master. Utterly relaxed, in deep love, in great gratitude, something goes on growing in you without any effort. Something goes on maturing, something goes on becoming more and more crystallized, … Continue reading

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On turning 39

Today is my birthday. I am now 39 years old. It’s been a beautiful, simple day, full of emails, phone calls and facebook messages. We visited a butterfly grove, where monarchs flitted through dappled sunlight. We hiked down to a … Continue reading

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On being a parent & giveaway #3

Mama, I decided to wish for a little brother. Oh really? Yes, I want to wish for a little brother. What do you think it would be like, to have a little brother? It would be fun. And it would … Continue reading

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