I wonder

Steve said to me once, after a particularly wrenching cry, It seems as though, sometimes, you are mourning more than Benjamin’s death.

I think he might be right.

There are times when the sadness overwhelms, and my body leaps and shudders under the weight of my tears, that I see flashes of other times, other places, other losses.

I wonder if I’ve ever fully grieved anything.

I wonder if I can do it this time.

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2 Responses to I wonder

  1. Jessica says:

    I hope that you can Alana! I think that it is hard to ever fully grieve such a loss. My first miscarriage I did NOT appropriately grieve and when the second one happened it was like the flood gates opened and both losses crashed into me at once… (((hugs))) ❤

  2. Lindsey says:

    What wisdom there is here. Astonishing. I know you can.

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